In one word....

In one word..... Life

My life is back....

I can't even begin to explain to anyone...and I mean it....I have been unable to even explain it to Trevor; the feeling of having him back....

I can feel his body....hug him....grab him....squeeze him...kiss him...stare at him (not a picture, and contrary to popular belief while he was gone...NO A PICTURE IS NOT THE SAME! lol)

I can whisper in his ear how much I love him....

And as you all can see, it's literally been over a month since I've posted....well....This is going to be short and sweet because there are not enough words in the english language to describe the happiness I have felt and still feel to hug my soldier....I catch him off guard all the time, because I will just out of the blue wrap my arms around his shoulders and squeeze him towards me for a good 5 minutes....literally...without saying a word...those of you who KNOW me, understand the great amazement of me not talking for 5 mins straight LOL! I do this almost every day.....but maybe once every two weeks I will find some words to squeak out, and all I can muster is, "Thank you for coming home to me"

I'm not sure those 7 words mean anything to those of you reading this....or much to Trevor....but to me they hold the entire meaning and understanding of what it feels like to have him home.....He has given me a life back...

Life...

I can live my life....a life again....with no fear of breaking down uncontrollably during the most inappropriate times...He is my l;ife....and it's back...

Thank You for coming home to me <3